TRUST FALL

You know when you are about to do a trust fall, you analyze your partner and check if they will indeed be able to catch you. For obvious reasons, you are doing this for your own safety, even if you never fell.

The words 'trust fall' have been on my mind lately, I am in a place where I am uncertain of my future, I still don't know what I want to do and if things will actually work out. I know these two words could be God telling me to trust Him and I know that He will work it out, He has done it before. But there is a small survival voice in my head that is always telling me 'You know you have to have Plan B or something' and I think this voice was birthed after being disappointed many times by other people in my life. And I was left stranded with no plan because they let me down, so even after being Christian I came in with the same mentality to God and I couldn't fully trust Him because of my past experiences.

This whole situation led to half-heartedness because I claimed that 'I trust God to work it out' BUT through my actions, I am already calling for back-up, planning for the 'in case' instead of just being still. I was unable to give Him my all because the truth is, I was also relying on something else. And you know what? He would always work it out and those plans of mine, would not even succeed (in the long run). How much more if I could just be still and 'know He is God', because I think even in the 'waiting' there is a lot that God can teach us.

My prayer is that we do not put God and man on the same pedestal, God is far greater than man and he will not disappoint us. Some of us have been hurt and 'trusting' feels like something we cannot do. I don't have a step-by-step solution on how 'You can trust again' but God is known as a redeemer and a healer. Only He can do it.

It's still a journey but here are a few verses that helped:

Romans 5:5-8

Matthew 18: 1-5

Psalm 46: 10

Proverbs 3:5

God's got you!